So I have just come back from the most amazing 6 days on the Road seeing one of my favorite bands Carolina Liar.
If you know me you know I adore these boys. If you just randomly read my non-sense I met these guys when they opened for Rob Thomas just over 2 years ago. I freely admit I had no clue who they were, but like everyone else in the world I knew Show Me What I'm Looking For to be one of the most amazing songs on the radio.
Anyhow a tour and 2 years later I am honored to be able to continue see these guys and get back just as much love from them as I have for them. I decided that I am willing to give up Sticks for Liars, a monumental thing in itself.
Anyhow I am gearing up for my "vacation" and move to the East Coast. However everyone still has mixed feelings. As much as I love my friends they know I will leave whether they want me to or not. However my family still has some influence.
My youngest daughter is unhappily struggling on her own having moved out not too long ago. My oldest daughter and grand daughter are happily living with me for $100 month. LOL, KIDS!
However in the total scheme of my life Vegas is slowly becoming a toxic place for me. I want out! In order to get out I plan to go to NYC for about 2 months and scout around. Shortly after I plan to move.
So back to the title of this. If I see leaving here as a survival mechanism for my happiness is it selfish that I am leaving everything I know to do it? This includes possibly giving up my close to (not quite, but close) 6 figure salary a year job in the middle of this stupidly crazy and bad economy?
I say no, but there are so many others that disagree.
I know that I will excel as an assistant in the industry. I am so willing to learn that someone could pretty much create me into the perfect PA, for them.
Its going to be hard, and I will use every contact I can just to get my foot in the door. Then its all me. I could excel or I could fail, but shouldn't I be allowed the chance without the criticism?
I had my kids young. I my no means claim to be a great or even a good mom. However they never suffered, much to their disbelief. Now that they are grown up and ready to move on with their lives should I not be allowed to do the same?
I send this out into cyberspace knowing I'm talking to myself, but hey maybe the answer will come to me from somewhere :-)
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Hitting Rock Bottom
So in my infinite plan to move forward I fell 100 stories to the bottom. We all do things that eventually we hit the bottom from. Its how you recover that counts.
I tread water until I was tired. I swam until I sank. I fought until my mind said I was done. I asked for help and a life preserver was thrown.
I'm now floating to the shore and it feel so good. By next week all the bad will be over and I can start looking forward at the next life I am creating for myself.
My future is finally looking up. I'm 36 and about to embark on the best years of my life. Where it will take me I have no idea, but you know what, I'm up for the challenge.
I have raised my family to the best of my ability and its time to set them free to fly or try. Will they follow me? Maybe, time will tell. I hope they will stand on their own feet, but sometime you have to crawl again to walk.
I love my sister endlessly for everything she does, has done and continues to do for me. She may not always approve, but she wants me to be happy.
Its time to put myself out there. I have less than 4 months before I can happily leave my current job and embark on this new journey.
Wish me luck, because I broke everything in my dropping to the bottom. Now is the time to pick myself up and climb like I never have before!
I tread water until I was tired. I swam until I sank. I fought until my mind said I was done. I asked for help and a life preserver was thrown.
I'm now floating to the shore and it feel so good. By next week all the bad will be over and I can start looking forward at the next life I am creating for myself.
My future is finally looking up. I'm 36 and about to embark on the best years of my life. Where it will take me I have no idea, but you know what, I'm up for the challenge.
I have raised my family to the best of my ability and its time to set them free to fly or try. Will they follow me? Maybe, time will tell. I hope they will stand on their own feet, but sometime you have to crawl again to walk.
I love my sister endlessly for everything she does, has done and continues to do for me. She may not always approve, but she wants me to be happy.
Its time to put myself out there. I have less than 4 months before I can happily leave my current job and embark on this new journey.
Wish me luck, because I broke everything in my dropping to the bottom. Now is the time to pick myself up and climb like I never have before!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Clarity & Lack of Sleep...UHG they don't mesh well in my life!
It is 2:12a and I can not sleep!
Took a nap before Hawaii 5-0 because I was so tired and now I'm fucked! I need to be up in a few hours.
So I was re-reading my blog, because sometimes I need to remember what I ramble about.
Part of getting my shit together is trying to clear the Karma I have brought upon myself or others on me.
I did one thing in my life that I can say was truly a terrible thing. Nothing extremely bad, I just went along with something and a few people got hurt along the way. One most likely still suffers from the effect even though she was so young at the time.
So I'm going to do something I NEVER do! I am going to make amends with a few people. Not that we will ever be friends or even have a "Family" relationship again, but at least that starts to release some of the negative energy on my Karma.
Now in saying that some things, like trying to get me fired to better your own career, are completely unforgivable, as far as I am concerned that person, well lets just say I don't care. However being the stubborn person I am I need to let some thing go. I am determined to have people in my life I love and get rid of those that make me want to kill someone!
So time to shake some bad Karma....OH this is gonna be hard! No time like the present right!
If this is what 36 brings, come on 37!
Took a nap before Hawaii 5-0 because I was so tired and now I'm fucked! I need to be up in a few hours.
So I was re-reading my blog, because sometimes I need to remember what I ramble about.
Part of getting my shit together is trying to clear the Karma I have brought upon myself or others on me.
I did one thing in my life that I can say was truly a terrible thing. Nothing extremely bad, I just went along with something and a few people got hurt along the way. One most likely still suffers from the effect even though she was so young at the time.
So I'm going to do something I NEVER do! I am going to make amends with a few people. Not that we will ever be friends or even have a "Family" relationship again, but at least that starts to release some of the negative energy on my Karma.
Now in saying that some things, like trying to get me fired to better your own career, are completely unforgivable, as far as I am concerned that person, well lets just say I don't care. However being the stubborn person I am I need to let some thing go. I am determined to have people in my life I love and get rid of those that make me want to kill someone!
So time to shake some bad Karma....OH this is gonna be hard! No time like the present right!
If this is what 36 brings, come on 37!
Monday, October 10, 2011
I fell the need to blog, but nothing come to mind to blog about.
I can say what I want to do over and over again and if the universe is listening it will happen. Gonna start reading some books on the industry. You can't learn how to be a PA, but you can learn what the person you want to be working for does.
Had a huge argument with my youngest child today on paying bills. It is what it is, she is going to learn the hard way.
I have always said I would blog to just get my feelings out, but i find that hard to do. Im going to set a reminder to remember at least once a week so I can keep this current.
Its going to be my journal to success, or maybe failure, we will see!!!
I can say what I want to do over and over again and if the universe is listening it will happen. Gonna start reading some books on the industry. You can't learn how to be a PA, but you can learn what the person you want to be working for does.
Had a huge argument with my youngest child today on paying bills. It is what it is, she is going to learn the hard way.
I have always said I would blog to just get my feelings out, but i find that hard to do. Im going to set a reminder to remember at least once a week so I can keep this current.
Its going to be my journal to success, or maybe failure, we will see!!!
Saturday, October 08, 2011
Depression & Me
Most likely not the best thing to talk about when I desperately want to change careers, but hey this is my blog I can say what I want!
I have suffered with Depression for years. I was on meds & in therapy for a long time, but me being me I stopped therapy and I just wont take the meds. I'm convinced I can control it myself.
One of my biggest issues was always that the issues with my kids were because of me. I am the only common denominator between them, well that and I managed to pro-create with 2 of the most lying useless people in my world. They both have a form of ADD/ADHD & one is bi-polar & has ODD. So for 2 kids to both have issues like that its got to be something in the genes rights? Who's genes do they both carry? Me! That was something my therapist was never able to work out of my head. That and after 2 years she only saw one break through with me...so I left! So my solution, I just wont have any more kids. I have gone to great lengths to make sure it stays that way too. Hence why I enjoy being single.
However I can literally feel my body sliding down the dark hole of despair as I call it. When it happens nothing and no one can fix me, only I can slide down and find the light hidden somewhere in my world.
Why bring this up? I was talking to a good friend over "Slice" this morning and she said that last Christmas I was off the radar for 6 days. No social networking no texting, email or phone calls. That kind of shocked me because I dont remember that at all! Normally I can tell you exactly when that was, kind of scary actually.
SO I said I was going to reread some stuff and see what was going on. I cant find anything. I see a trip to NY and I am always sad when i have to come back, that is getting worse. I cried leaving NY last trip. Although that was quickly removed by anger from the hellish 20 hour trip I had getting home.
To sum this all up. If I fall off the grid, I'm not lost, just taking a break. I still see everything that goes on, I just might not mentally be up to talking. All the love that is sent to me helps me find the light that will guide me back to sanity. Is it smart to not medicate, I think so, because on the meds I dont like the person I become.
I'm in a semi happy place. I have a goal, I have a direction and I can see myself where I want to be doing want I want to do. The obstacles to get me there are what hurts me the most, because they are obstacle I put there, I just didnt know it at the time.
To the people that know me, not the social networking Googleable me, none of this is new to you. You have experienced it before, even if you didn't know it. LOL you are now having an "AHHHH" moment. To those that only know me from the above, well when I'm offline for a while, dont worry I will be back to ramble some more.
I have suffered with Depression for years. I was on meds & in therapy for a long time, but me being me I stopped therapy and I just wont take the meds. I'm convinced I can control it myself.
One of my biggest issues was always that the issues with my kids were because of me. I am the only common denominator between them, well that and I managed to pro-create with 2 of the most lying useless people in my world. They both have a form of ADD/ADHD & one is bi-polar & has ODD. So for 2 kids to both have issues like that its got to be something in the genes rights? Who's genes do they both carry? Me! That was something my therapist was never able to work out of my head. That and after 2 years she only saw one break through with me...so I left! So my solution, I just wont have any more kids. I have gone to great lengths to make sure it stays that way too. Hence why I enjoy being single.
However I can literally feel my body sliding down the dark hole of despair as I call it. When it happens nothing and no one can fix me, only I can slide down and find the light hidden somewhere in my world.
Why bring this up? I was talking to a good friend over "Slice" this morning and she said that last Christmas I was off the radar for 6 days. No social networking no texting, email or phone calls. That kind of shocked me because I dont remember that at all! Normally I can tell you exactly when that was, kind of scary actually.
SO I said I was going to reread some stuff and see what was going on. I cant find anything. I see a trip to NY and I am always sad when i have to come back, that is getting worse. I cried leaving NY last trip. Although that was quickly removed by anger from the hellish 20 hour trip I had getting home.
To sum this all up. If I fall off the grid, I'm not lost, just taking a break. I still see everything that goes on, I just might not mentally be up to talking. All the love that is sent to me helps me find the light that will guide me back to sanity. Is it smart to not medicate, I think so, because on the meds I dont like the person I become.
I'm in a semi happy place. I have a goal, I have a direction and I can see myself where I want to be doing want I want to do. The obstacles to get me there are what hurts me the most, because they are obstacle I put there, I just didnt know it at the time.
To the people that know me, not the social networking Googleable me, none of this is new to you. You have experienced it before, even if you didn't know it. LOL you are now having an "AHHHH" moment. To those that only know me from the above, well when I'm offline for a while, dont worry I will be back to ramble some more.
Thursday, October 06, 2011
My outlook on 36
So I turned 36...blah! Another birthday, another Tuesday...how...BLAH!
On the plus side I feel big changes coming.
I have some serious financial issues that have to get sorted...but i still feel its all recoverable.
I can visualize myself in another place being happy finally.
Of course that visualization takes me to the East Coast. Very few people are thrilled about it and even less believe I will do it. My question is simply Why Not?
I am at the perfect point in my life where I can change careers. My daughters & grand daughter, although I love them endlessly, really dont need me any more. Once kid moved out and the other is just buying time to get on her feet.
I am no longer happy in Vegas, I'm just going through the motions of the day to day things.
I know what I want to do. I want to get to the other side of the rope. However I have no experience other than being a friend and a fan. I dont have a degree, I dont have a pieve of paper that says I know something I will never use. What I do have is ambition and drive and a passion. I know I will make some unsuspecting person an amazing assistant. I'm a control freak, i need things to be done my way, there is no other way. I have 12 years of telecommunications experience and a total of 6 years of management experience.
I need that one lucky break and I am good.
Good things are going to happen in the next 12 months, just wait and see!
I wasnt a Steve Jobs fan & I am sorry he passed. However I did learn that one person can have a massive impact on large numbers of people. Sometimes you can have more and love and respect in your life than you can ever imagine or know. Thanx Steve for showing me that Dreams are possible, and then some.
On the plus side my Carolina Liar boys are hitting the road! These guys deserve all the success they can image! I get to see them in 15 days....WOOHOO!
Ok to bed now!
On the plus side I feel big changes coming.
I have some serious financial issues that have to get sorted...but i still feel its all recoverable.
I can visualize myself in another place being happy finally.
Of course that visualization takes me to the East Coast. Very few people are thrilled about it and even less believe I will do it. My question is simply Why Not?
I am at the perfect point in my life where I can change careers. My daughters & grand daughter, although I love them endlessly, really dont need me any more. Once kid moved out and the other is just buying time to get on her feet.
I am no longer happy in Vegas, I'm just going through the motions of the day to day things.
I know what I want to do. I want to get to the other side of the rope. However I have no experience other than being a friend and a fan. I dont have a degree, I dont have a pieve of paper that says I know something I will never use. What I do have is ambition and drive and a passion. I know I will make some unsuspecting person an amazing assistant. I'm a control freak, i need things to be done my way, there is no other way. I have 12 years of telecommunications experience and a total of 6 years of management experience.
I need that one lucky break and I am good.
Good things are going to happen in the next 12 months, just wait and see!
I wasnt a Steve Jobs fan & I am sorry he passed. However I did learn that one person can have a massive impact on large numbers of people. Sometimes you can have more and love and respect in your life than you can ever imagine or know. Thanx Steve for showing me that Dreams are possible, and then some.
On the plus side my Carolina Liar boys are hitting the road! These guys deserve all the success they can image! I get to see them in 15 days....WOOHOO!
Ok to bed now!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Carolina Liar is BACK!!!
I sit here typing 37 hours after I left my house to go to LA to see Carolina Liar. The drive down was pretty uneventful...well except for what the gummies were doing on the dashboard, but thats a different posting.
Speaking of Gummies, Melissa and I stopped at the Alien Jerky place to get some stuff for a friend and decided to get some Sugar Free Gummies for the ride....BIG MISTAKE!!! Unbeknownst to us those gummies have something in them that resembles a laxative and you are only supposed to eat a few at a time. The rest of the night was event and painful!
Anyhow once we checked into our hotel and changed we drove over to the venue. I think LA should have Carmeggedon evey weekend I am in town....traffic was great! LOL there was barely any!!!
So from here is just a series of being in the right place a the right time. We entered the Curious George lot (thanx!) and almost parked really far away from the elevator. However we opt'd to drive around some more and got primo parking right by the elevator. I was telling Melissa that we should be able to walk down the stairs but we opt'd to stay and wait for the elevator.
The doors open and guess who walks out? The CL boys! That made the whole trip worth it! We got hugs and we were just so happy to see them...we knew that the rest of the night was gonna be great :-)
We went down to check out the venue and then opt's to eat at Hard Rock. Lunch went well, the gummies were still attacking, and then we went to the fence. The front was already full, but we hoped that some people would leave after the first band.
OK the first band was so NOT my type of live music. I'm sure that all the people that were their for them really enjoyed it, but um yeah...we didn't...so let's fast forward to the guys.
There was some technical difficulties and the guys got a late start, but they were amazing! I missed seeing them do what they love, and I love what they do. I'm so excited for the new songs! Drown live was all I thought it would be. Chad can work a crowd and get them going no matter if you love CL or have no clue who they are. That's the one thing I remember about when i first saw them a few years ago. Anyone that can get a crowd on their feet like him deserves to be on a stage.
I know they had a curfew, but they rocked as many songs as they could in the time they had and they had fun. Hell we had fun!
Got to spend some time with the guys after the show...they have a lot of stuff planned and I plan to follow them every step of the way. If you have read through this whole posting and still have no clue who I am talking about you need to go to the Carolina Liar web site and sign up. Listen to the guys music and enjoy the musical ride!
Speaking of Gummies, Melissa and I stopped at the Alien Jerky place to get some stuff for a friend and decided to get some Sugar Free Gummies for the ride....BIG MISTAKE!!! Unbeknownst to us those gummies have something in them that resembles a laxative and you are only supposed to eat a few at a time. The rest of the night was event and painful!
Anyhow once we checked into our hotel and changed we drove over to the venue. I think LA should have Carmeggedon evey weekend I am in town....traffic was great! LOL there was barely any!!!
So from here is just a series of being in the right place a the right time. We entered the Curious George lot (thanx!) and almost parked really far away from the elevator. However we opt'd to drive around some more and got primo parking right by the elevator. I was telling Melissa that we should be able to walk down the stairs but we opt'd to stay and wait for the elevator.
The doors open and guess who walks out? The CL boys! That made the whole trip worth it! We got hugs and we were just so happy to see them...we knew that the rest of the night was gonna be great :-)
We went down to check out the venue and then opt's to eat at Hard Rock. Lunch went well, the gummies were still attacking, and then we went to the fence. The front was already full, but we hoped that some people would leave after the first band.
OK the first band was so NOT my type of live music. I'm sure that all the people that were their for them really enjoyed it, but um yeah...we didn't...so let's fast forward to the guys.
There was some technical difficulties and the guys got a late start, but they were amazing! I missed seeing them do what they love, and I love what they do. I'm so excited for the new songs! Drown live was all I thought it would be. Chad can work a crowd and get them going no matter if you love CL or have no clue who they are. That's the one thing I remember about when i first saw them a few years ago. Anyone that can get a crowd on their feet like him deserves to be on a stage.
I know they had a curfew, but they rocked as many songs as they could in the time they had and they had fun. Hell we had fun!
Got to spend some time with the guys after the show...they have a lot of stuff planned and I plan to follow them every step of the way. If you have read through this whole posting and still have no clue who I am talking about you need to go to the Carolina Liar web site and sign up. Listen to the guys music and enjoy the musical ride!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
New Outlook
I spent the last weekend with over 20 women in two rooms as we waited to see Matchbox Twenty. You know what? It was one of the best times I have had in along time. We were loud, drank too much, loud and had an amazing time!!!
I got some great hang time with Abby (who i miss endlessly). Had about 45 minutes of Matt time. We had our standard coffee date, but with Abby this time. It was just like old times hanging with the two of them.
I got to see how much it bugged an ex-friend to know I am living the life she wanted and doing it well. If her fiance is anything to go off of she is going to be a miserable person all her life!
It was truly a fantastic time!!!
What it did show me is that this upcoming move is a good thing. I just need to do it correctly. If all goes well my boss will approve the two months I want to take to go to NY and "try it out". When I come back i will know if its really what I want to do.
My trip to Europe is coming up next year. There is so much I still want to do, its all about making the commitment.....I'm committed!
I will miss the life I plan to leave behind here in Vegas, but you know what? Those I love will still be here and those I don't wont. It really can't get any better than that!
I got some great hang time with Abby (who i miss endlessly). Had about 45 minutes of Matt time. We had our standard coffee date, but with Abby this time. It was just like old times hanging with the two of them.
I got to see how much it bugged an ex-friend to know I am living the life she wanted and doing it well. If her fiance is anything to go off of she is going to be a miserable person all her life!
It was truly a fantastic time!!!
What it did show me is that this upcoming move is a good thing. I just need to do it correctly. If all goes well my boss will approve the two months I want to take to go to NY and "try it out". When I come back i will know if its really what I want to do.
My trip to Europe is coming up next year. There is so much I still want to do, its all about making the commitment.....I'm committed!
I will miss the life I plan to leave behind here in Vegas, but you know what? Those I love will still be here and those I don't wont. It really can't get any better than that!
Monday, July 04, 2011
Turning 60!
First off my daughter graduated High School....it almost didn't happen, but it did! Unlike some she even found a job. She is working at Kid's Quest, this is a great job fit for her, because she really does like kids.
Work is going well, now that I have cut the negative evil virus out of my life!
I think I have found a happy medium to my life as it stand right now.
I have new New York plans. A co-worker gave em a great idea about going to live there for a few months and REALLY see if its gonna work. I have all these grand ideas, but you know what, maybe its too late. However if I do a trial run I will know for sure and then I can start moving forward.
My British Bombshell Buddy Julia has left me (she is going to hate that). Moved back to the UK...blah! We had a ripper of a weekend though. I seriously had the makings of a great movie! There was lateness, lost in Vegas issues, lots of drinking, male stripping (Damn he was hot), drunken craziness, crazy tourist, more drinking, chats, non-chats, dancing, more drinking, vomiting in ice buckets and car windows, reading the details of the night on FB the next day, going out the next night and laughing about the night before, broken hearts, beating heart, true love, just love, talk of sex, cock blocking, and sex toys lost in luggage, Chris and Tiffany and passed out Las Vegas tourist....just to name a few things....seriously one of the most HILARIOUS going away weekend celebrations ever! So glad I was sober!
On the negative side a friend of mine from Numb Bar passed away. It makes me sad not only that he is gone, but that the last time I saw him we had a stupid, stupid fight and I didn't say goodbye. Once of those stupid moments you cant ever take back. However I know I told him enough how much I adored him and in my mind I'm hoping it was enough. Love ya Corn Beef!
I have found myself in the odd spot of actually falling for the most amazing guy, but he will NEVER know it. My friend Jennifer says from the moment I spot him my eyes light up and the smile never leaves my face. My friends will tell you that is so NOT me!!! I'm so OK with it though, because I love the friendship we have. He's a smart guy I'm pretty sure he suspects, but....
You know what? I have some of the most amazing friends. When I tell people I have friends all over the world they look skeptical, but really music and social networking have helped me find the most amazing people. Those that I let in are there to stay...LMAO and some have been set free and away from me....totally OK with that!
Thinking about moving again...just a shorter lease while I make up my mind about New York too. Mainly because I want to kill my neighbors on a nightly basis. The people who have their balcony directly across from mine apparently can not control they evil children. Its 1215 right now and they are letting the little bad ass brat yell and scream...with the door OPEN!!! Seriously!!! My 4y old is sleeping...so its either move or go to jail...I'm not real fond of the jail part.
SO I turned 60!!! Well I just did my 60th "Official" Matt Goss show. If I counted all the partial shows I would be way over that, but for the sake of keeping it honest I only did the full shows. What a great night! Amazing Eye Sex, got a new bow tie, lots of love and I got to spend it with my MB20 girls!!! I love when my 2 worlds come together. Nigel Lythgow was there too....he was a riot when we were taking pics!
I never thought I would like another musician like I do my core musical obsessions, but Matt is so much fun. The band is so freaking amazing that you just have to fall in love with them all! All my pics are on FB so if you are one of my FB friends who I may or may not know...enjoy!
OK I think I am done :-) Thanks to the one person that reads this!
Me
Work is going well, now that I have cut the negative evil virus out of my life!
I think I have found a happy medium to my life as it stand right now.
I have new New York plans. A co-worker gave em a great idea about going to live there for a few months and REALLY see if its gonna work. I have all these grand ideas, but you know what, maybe its too late. However if I do a trial run I will know for sure and then I can start moving forward.
My British Bombshell Buddy Julia has left me (she is going to hate that). Moved back to the UK...blah! We had a ripper of a weekend though. I seriously had the makings of a great movie! There was lateness, lost in Vegas issues, lots of drinking, male stripping (Damn he was hot), drunken craziness, crazy tourist, more drinking, chats, non-chats, dancing, more drinking, vomiting in ice buckets and car windows, reading the details of the night on FB the next day, going out the next night and laughing about the night before, broken hearts, beating heart, true love, just love, talk of sex, cock blocking, and sex toys lost in luggage, Chris and Tiffany and passed out Las Vegas tourist....just to name a few things....seriously one of the most HILARIOUS going away weekend celebrations ever! So glad I was sober!
On the negative side a friend of mine from Numb Bar passed away. It makes me sad not only that he is gone, but that the last time I saw him we had a stupid, stupid fight and I didn't say goodbye. Once of those stupid moments you cant ever take back. However I know I told him enough how much I adored him and in my mind I'm hoping it was enough. Love ya Corn Beef!
I have found myself in the odd spot of actually falling for the most amazing guy, but he will NEVER know it. My friend Jennifer says from the moment I spot him my eyes light up and the smile never leaves my face. My friends will tell you that is so NOT me!!! I'm so OK with it though, because I love the friendship we have. He's a smart guy I'm pretty sure he suspects, but....
You know what? I have some of the most amazing friends. When I tell people I have friends all over the world they look skeptical, but really music and social networking have helped me find the most amazing people. Those that I let in are there to stay...LMAO and some have been set free and away from me....totally OK with that!
Thinking about moving again...just a shorter lease while I make up my mind about New York too. Mainly because I want to kill my neighbors on a nightly basis. The people who have their balcony directly across from mine apparently can not control they evil children. Its 1215 right now and they are letting the little bad ass brat yell and scream...with the door OPEN!!! Seriously!!! My 4y old is sleeping...so its either move or go to jail...I'm not real fond of the jail part.
SO I turned 60!!! Well I just did my 60th "Official" Matt Goss show. If I counted all the partial shows I would be way over that, but for the sake of keeping it honest I only did the full shows. What a great night! Amazing Eye Sex, got a new bow tie, lots of love and I got to spend it with my MB20 girls!!! I love when my 2 worlds come together. Nigel Lythgow was there too....he was a riot when we were taking pics!
I never thought I would like another musician like I do my core musical obsessions, but Matt is so much fun. The band is so freaking amazing that you just have to fall in love with them all! All my pics are on FB so if you are one of my FB friends who I may or may not know...enjoy!
OK I think I am done :-) Thanks to the one person that reads this!
Me
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Time to Blog
I could start like I always do and say it's been a while, but hell we know that already.
So work is better...I still think that evil bitch is just that, but hey you can't like everyone right?
So one of my best friends in Vegas left. She is in Utah now...its weird not seeing her at work. I did however go get fitted for my bridesmaid dress...can not wait for the wedding!
Been doing Friday nights at Numb and Sunday's at Nikki Beach seeing Jay.
Getting ready for the kids graduation on Friday. My Niece graduated last week, so extremely proud of the girls!
Got a Matchbox Twenty day coming up soon! 19 of us are headed to San Diego County look out Pechanga!
I'm kinda at ok right now, just rolling with the punches.
Enford's Anniversary just passed....I was talking to Joseph today and I realized that he is the greatest gift ever left to me. I love and miss them endlessly!
My heart is sick for the subway and high rises of New York...I'm working on the endless emptiness of not being there.
I posted a FB message that captured my mood the other day.
Happiness is the place where I smile the most...not here, not on this coast...My house of cards is falling to the ground while life moves round and round...good out weighs bad, but negative out weighs the positive...you can only love those who are willing and you can only be willing to love those that are open to your flaws...no one is perfect, some are just less perfect than the average person...that person is me
It still captures the emotions I feel.
Ok yeah and I have a pretty massive crush....LOL and NO it's not Roger :-)
So work is better...I still think that evil bitch is just that, but hey you can't like everyone right?
So one of my best friends in Vegas left. She is in Utah now...its weird not seeing her at work. I did however go get fitted for my bridesmaid dress...can not wait for the wedding!
Been doing Friday nights at Numb and Sunday's at Nikki Beach seeing Jay.
Getting ready for the kids graduation on Friday. My Niece graduated last week, so extremely proud of the girls!
Got a Matchbox Twenty day coming up soon! 19 of us are headed to San Diego County look out Pechanga!
I'm kinda at ok right now, just rolling with the punches.
Enford's Anniversary just passed....I was talking to Joseph today and I realized that he is the greatest gift ever left to me. I love and miss them endlessly!
My heart is sick for the subway and high rises of New York...I'm working on the endless emptiness of not being there.
I posted a FB message that captured my mood the other day.
Happiness is the place where I smile the most...not here, not on this coast...My house of cards is falling to the ground while life moves round and round...good out weighs bad, but negative out weighs the positive...you can only love those who are willing and you can only be willing to love those that are open to your flaws...no one is perfect, some are just less perfect than the average person...that person is me
It still captures the emotions I feel.
Ok yeah and I have a pretty massive crush....LOL and NO it's not Roger :-)
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