An Emotional Night

Today started out OK, I was running late for work, so the normal.

However the problem I have been having lately is that my entire body hurts from being tired.  No matter how early I get to bed or how much I sleep my body is still tired.  A part of me was worried.

I had my office Christmas party today, but to keep this a happy post I won't even talk about it.

So after that I was really in a bad mood and didn't want to go out.  However it was gonna be girls night.  So we went to see Mission Impossible, again for me and Jen. Yup still love it!

After that we ended up at Numb, where things just go down hill.

Now Numb has brought me some great friends. However it does not have a good record for men. Jay was there and he left under, well we still don't know the circumstances.  Jaime just didn't wake up one day and now Ray is moving his family back to CA.  I understand his reasoning's and its gonna be good for his family.  However due to his home situation I know that I will most likely never see or here from him again. It sucks when you have been friends, even just social, with someone for over a year and then they are gone with a few hours notice. In the same few hour time frame I got notice that another friend got a great job and although still living in Vegas he too will be "gone". Compound that with Justin leaving and I'm a wreck!

Anyhow while at the Peppermill I started to talk it out with Adam.  I was telling him about the sleep issues and I think its all my emotions fighting against each other. Basically I'm having a LOT of anxiety about the move, fear of failing, excitement and lastly depression over leaving my most favorite little person in the world. I am so excited at the prospect of living on the East Coast, I am not changing my mind at all I know the East is where I want to be. I just have to come to terms with all the emotions. Turn the negative energy into the positive that is going to change my life and my future forever.

So its time to start packing...get rid of the clutter and start this journey with a fresh outlook...I'm literally diving into the emotional pool that is my life...I'll let you know when I surface.  Wish me luck!