Its been a few weeks and my routine has returned to what it is. My heart pulls at me to be on the East Coast. I want to bring my grand daughter with me, but as Viv pointed out, the whole point of the move is because the kids are grown up. If Alyssa comes with me then I am in the same boat, which defeats the purpose of being able to get up an go. I cant imagine my day without her, but Tatiana is getting better so we will see. She will still spend summers on the East Coast with me, she is gonna be an East Coast baby!
My move may be put on hold for a while. I'm getting custody back!! That doesn't mean a lot now but it will in future blogs. Let's just say that loving someone makes me do some crazy stuff, but in this case it is worth it! Then again we can do the East Coast together...who knows.
As I said life has returned to normal. I'm back at work, back to sleeping on my couch. My lease is coming to an end in a few months so its time to get ready to move again. Thinking 3 bedroom. Tatiana and Alyssa are hardly ever home and I am just paying for a lot of needless space right now. I'm doing a short lease because, well I'm moving to the East Coast! I have considered buying something, with my crappy credit who knows if anyone will let me. You figure I pay over $12,000 a year in rent as it is, a small place at about $40k would be workable.
So let's talk about work. Since there is still some pending stuff going on I will say what I can just because I need to throw it out there into the universe...cause Karma is a bitch!
When I look back over the last 2 years and think of all the strange and bad things that have happened I never took a good look at the people around me. I always felt safe in talking to my "friends". Yet low and behold I found the "enemy" around me.
Everyone knows I like to go out, drink, vent and have some fun. When I am angry I vent, LOUDLY. Anyhow myself and two other parties went out for dinner and drinks. Things may or may not have been said, but it was in what I thought was a safe environment. If you are amongst friends and something you are hearing concerns you, would you talk to your friends or order food, laugh and cry, drink some more and then run back an report your fucked up "VERSION" of what you think happened.
Of course the latter happened and now I see that the people I blamed were not truly at fault, it was the evil person feeding them the info. I am as ambitious as the next person, but I dont believe stepping on people to kiss ass gets you any further in your career....apparently some people do.
Anyhow the gist of it is I know who my true friend is and who my true enemy is. My friend is leaving me but I understand why and love her for it. My enemy is just that. I can work with the person, but outside of actually having to discuss work related items I'm done. I think now knowing who I am dealing with things will be much better.
My daughter is going to prom this weekend if her deadbeat jackass of a donor can for once do what he says and give her the money. I'm not holding counting on it, once a dead beat bastard always a dead beat bastard. These 16 and pregnant girls have no idea the hell they are setting themselves up for. When i got pregnant with my youngest i really thought I was in love...HAHAHA all Phil "aka JINX" (name fits) was good for was....well nothing! Such a waste of human flesh!
Oh well that my rant about deadbeats. I'm not supporting her going because at 18 and just a month from graduation she may NOT graduate. I have an issue with her slacking off for four years but still expecting me to drop hundreds of dollars on what could be an attendance certificate and not a diploma.
LOL and thats my life on the West Coast...see why the East is oh so tempting!
